Ehsaas

Jitna hasante the tum
Aaj utna rulate ho tum
Jaan the kabhi hamari
Dard ka ehsaas dilate ho tum
Door the hamse jitna
Aaj utna paas nazar aate ho tum

Final Pew

"Walking on the serendipitous path
I wondered aloud ...Where have I come?
Haven or just another resting pew
Like the ones I mistook many times
For my destination...my harbor
Wondering I kept moving on
The ensuing worthier than the last."

Would I ever want to stop? Where is it that I want to go? What do I actually want? Is life a walk along the unwinding path or a pathway to that dream house where you wanted to arrive? I move along trying to find the final pew.

Drifter's Heart

"Those hopes and tears pulling me apart
Are alive in some obscure part
I run away,they keep following
Trying to talk to my detached heart."

How many times I have tried to run away , to forget the time that was still they follow me like ghosts on a distant path. They donot let me bypass the memory path...."what would you get?"- I simply ask..... "A drifter's heart"- They answer with a vicious laugh....

Core

" The very core of your being has risen against you,
The tears in your eyes say more than you want to,
And you want your heart to still believe you........"

The few words can destroy your world more brutally than any storm. Your mind tells you to believe the changed reality but your heart refuses to acknowledge the existence of it. How can the very people you love and care for misunderstand you? How can they miss the fact that your very existence is just because of their love for you?

The fate plays strange games beyond my coprehension. I still refuse to take the bait and settle for what it wants me to do. I'll wait maybe forever 'cause someone out there is too precious to give up.

YOU

" Many a times I have walked under the moonlit sky
Listening to your voiceless whispers
I know you follow me with soundless steps
There's a movement in that still night
You trying to touch me
Through the sheer fabric of air
I feel that caress through my mind
I feel you through the nothingness
And absorb your presence through my soul"

You still are there all around me. I see you smiling, laughing and loving me. Taking me by my small hands and teaching me how to walk, the words you taught me echo in my head , I want to run and reach you, I get up and make my move but you are not there.

Kill

"Kill you must
To avoid the strife,
And I killed the new
To let old survive."

How weak we can be in our moments of despair and take the decisios which we bear like an albatross around our neck all our life. They keep nibbling at you as long as your heart beats and you live every moment in shadows of the your failed side.

Ahh...I killed you before you could exist and your faceless form haunts me every night. I supressed your exisence to let my own live. I am paying you with my soul but please let me sleep for a little while.................

The Chill

"The breeze today has an unsavory chill in it,
Is it the coldness of your heart seeping through my skin?"

Those words do not seem to be yours. And still i know they have been uttered by you. The cause is not new , it goes long back and you know it too. I thought it was a play of our childhood, burried forever and forgotten somehwere deep in our relationship. I thought the layers of time and closeness had filled those cracks but words have proved me wrong. Whom should i believe - myself or you?